The Wild Inside Her

I’ve never quite fit in.

Not with mom groups, not with coworkers, not even with friends who I adore but just don’t get it.

I could show up, smile, talk for hours — then go home completely drained, replaying every word I said.

Did I talk too much? Did I say something weird? What was her name again?

It was a whole performance, and afterward I’d collapse into self-doubt and exhaustion.

I always felt like a wildflower in a garden of roses — everyone else polished and thriving in neat rows while I grew sideways, colorful and chaotic, in the cracks.

For years I tried to tame that wildness. To fit in. To follow all the “shoulds” and “shouldn’ts.”

But deep down, something inside me ached for freedom. Craving the ability to just drop the mask and share myself, whether I fit in or not, whether people understood or not, I just wanted to let go of the chains that held me back from expressing the wildly creative, emotional, deep thinking part of me that no one knew.

When I finally learned I had ADHD, I stopped trying to hide the ‘wild’ inside me and started embracing it. Learning tools and strategies (some of which I had put in place long before I even knew the ‘why’) that work best for me.

That’s when I began to feel free — not ‘fixed’, not perfect, just me.

That’s what this blog is about.
Not the science or the stats (I’ll leave that to the doctors).

This space is for connection — for every woman who’s ever thought, “Why can’t I just get it together?”

We’re not broken.
We’re wild, brilliant, beautifully wired — and we’re not alone anymore.

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